strange

Here is something strange, now that school is out for christmas break and i'm home. Something just doesn't seem right and i cannot tell what it is. That is the main thing but things here are different. True that i miss the new people that i have met at school but that should not have me feeling like this. Maybe it is just me I hope so at laest.

Tick-Tock

TICK what are these things that are going through my head. TOCK what can I do to make them stop going in circles. TICK this pain in my heart what is the cause, it couldn't be that could it. TOCK thought I was over this why am I still at this place. TICK can this feeling that I have really be true or is that another trick. TOCK please don't let this be a lie. TICK oh lord please let this be real. TOCK i'm going to take this for what it is. TICK guess only time will tell; let it tell me something good. TOCK i'll take for what it is good or ill. TICK can't be that bad can it....really can it? TOCK now i'm scared what does it all mean, can anybody tell me.TICK i'll be strong even if it is only for me. TOCK i'll be strong for them too even if they don't know.TICK,TOCK,TICK,TOCK...........TICK

Fireproofing

This one is for the older group of people or just for those who are in a relationship. I've went to go see a movie tonight called Fireproof. If you are married or have a boyfriend/girlfriend and if yall are haveing problems even if you are not this is a movie that you should go see. This movie has a great messege and theme. Pretty much this movie is about when your relationship is under fire can you stand up and face it. Are you strong enough in your faith and your relationship to be fireproof. If not don't forget about God and that he is looking out for you and loves you like no other even when you reject him again again. Watch this movie and see how your love life and you spirtual life fireproof.

Take it in

For the most part I try to tak e what life throughs at me and take it in. Sometimes that is not so easy, you know .Today feels like a good day I mean the sun is shining its warm out but I can't help feeling cold and overcasted. Now that is messed up, I know what is up with me are at least I have a pretty good idea what is up. It kind of makes me sad to realise thast after all this time now i'm finally lossing control.. I know what i'm that going do and thats what I always do. Take it one day at a time, take in the good with the bad, and enjoy what I can of life and the day as I can.

The Unending Change

I can't help but notice that life is change. Weird I know right but anyway like I was saying life is change and with myself mostily I've been trying to change the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Right now I would say that it is somwhere about my elbow and thats night bad for like six months worth of work. I still have a long way to go and thats kind of the hard part knowiing that I still have a lot of work yet do. For each person it's different hell some people don't even have this problem. Everytime I think back on past relationships I come to find that it all boiled down to this one thing. So maybe taking it easy for a bit and just enjoying the process and the growth that comes with a relationship is something to think about not only for myself but for others as well. Maybe even seeing these people again will tell me if I was right to just go all out or if I should just grateful for what I had with them and let them go.

Life lessons "sigh"

One major thing about life that bugs me are all the lessons. Most are learned as you go through them and some people could give you a heads up. I guess if they did that though you prob would not get the whole affect. Personily i'm sick of them why can't they take a snow day or something, life would be dole for a bit but i could live with that. I know it sounds like i'm whining and I prob am. Be that as it may long as i live they will just keep coming so whining wont really make a difference. Heres the funny the funny thing i just had another one right now and it didn't even show up till I finished this.

Over the break

Unlike most students I took a little longer break then some. It was filled mostily by work but I was able to see some friends I haven't seen in a grip. I even went to a club for Boo and Brew
and that was even kind of fun. There was a couple of people I did not get a chance to see but on my next break I will. Everybody at my job was wondering how I was doing and how school was going, that was pretty cool of them. The funny thing is that I spent most of my break dodgeing sick people just like before I left for break but some how when I got back I find myself starting to feel ill. Hope its only the weather change affecting me; wouldn't be the first time.